Thursday, August 30, 2012
i quit for today..
I just wrote a long wonderful post and was just finishing up when the whole thing disappeared. I am just too tired to do it all again. I have been working ALL DAY since 6 am on things I need to get done for school. We have two inservice days after Labor Day and then kiddos come on Thursday. But I spend the first 10 or so days assessing all the students on my caseload.
ISaiah left this morning to go see his gf, who is away at college, before he has to start his senior year. She is living with her Dad so he will not really be alone with his gf on a campus! Ahhh, I am just not ready for all this.
So, today I dropped him off at the shuttle at 5:30 so I wanted to head straight to school and work, but it was still locked. So I came home, which is probably better, because there were few distractions. I had the house to myself almost all day. So I spent the entire day working on school stuff, aside from a little time I needed to do some shopping at the local teacher recycling store...great finds today, and EVERYTHING is free. Our PTO pays a small fee for our whole staff to be able to go there.
I also brought in some new crayons and markers I bought on sale . Ruth, the lady who runs the wharehouse (which started years ago in her garage), puts together backpacks for some of the neediest kids in our county. She makes sure they all have a new backpack, crayons, markers, colored pencils, etc etc. You would not believe what we can get free there...today they had a shipment of whiteboards on easels that some company donated. In fact I think I will go back there next week and see if the custodian will go and we can get some in his pickup for those teachers who needs a smaller one to use in their teaching corner or circle.
Well. I am going to go get a snack and then I need to wipe up the floor here. It is smelling stuffy in here, like dog. Yeah, nice image huh? well, I didn;t turn the air on today, but didn't open the windows either, so what would one expect?
So til tomorrow... By the way, if you are reading this, perhaps ypu will consider pressing the follow button. Today marks 4 weeks and I have ....drum roll please....da..dah....ZERO followers. YUP!
til tomorrow
Cindi
Oh yeah...and here is the link to the recipe I made...
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
A late night
Good evening my friends, or should I say good morning.
I don't really know why I stay up so late. I think it is because it is the last few days of summer and I am rebelling in my own silly way. I am actually excited to be going back to school, but I know there are many many things I could have done over the summer to make the beginning of the year that much more exciting. I think I need to make a fall "bucket list". We all know by now how much I procrastinate, yet I love the challenge of checking things off my list. I will work on a cute fall bucket list over the weekend. Maybe I will make one for school and one for home...you know..pick apples, make a new soup, decorate a pumpkin, paint the deck. I think that will make life a bit more fun and on track.
Went to school today and got a lot done. Not enough of course, I always get sidetracked with people and that drives my partner teacher bananas. She is a work horse and I can be a social butterfly and that leaves her constantly waiting on me. I am sure it is frustrating.
I made a new recipe for dinner! It was yummy. Got it on pinterest of course...posting the pic here. Okay, this is not mine, but mine looked very much like it. And it was really good..chicken, cheese, cream of mushroom soup, crescent rolls, it just doesn't get any better than that!
Well, seeing as how it is 3:30 in the morning I better sign off. The stupid dog just started his barking which will go on most of the night. He is afraid of the dark and afraid to be alone. We leave a light and tv on for the silly thing. My room is just too small and he cannot be still enough to let him sleep in my room. Maybe after I clean and organize it I can put a bed up here for him. It sure ld
Make him a happy camper.
Be back again in a few hours,
Cindi
Oops..cannot post the pic with the iPad. Will do so tomorrow!
I don't really know why I stay up so late. I think it is because it is the last few days of summer and I am rebelling in my own silly way. I am actually excited to be going back to school, but I know there are many many things I could have done over the summer to make the beginning of the year that much more exciting. I think I need to make a fall "bucket list". We all know by now how much I procrastinate, yet I love the challenge of checking things off my list. I will work on a cute fall bucket list over the weekend. Maybe I will make one for school and one for home...you know..pick apples, make a new soup, decorate a pumpkin, paint the deck. I think that will make life a bit more fun and on track.
Went to school today and got a lot done. Not enough of course, I always get sidetracked with people and that drives my partner teacher bananas. She is a work horse and I can be a social butterfly and that leaves her constantly waiting on me. I am sure it is frustrating.
I made a new recipe for dinner! It was yummy. Got it on pinterest of course...posting the pic here. Okay, this is not mine, but mine looked very much like it. And it was really good..chicken, cheese, cream of mushroom soup, crescent rolls, it just doesn't get any better than that!
Well, seeing as how it is 3:30 in the morning I better sign off. The stupid dog just started his barking which will go on most of the night. He is afraid of the dark and afraid to be alone. We leave a light and tv on for the silly thing. My room is just too small and he cannot be still enough to let him sleep in my room. Maybe after I clean and organize it I can put a bed up here for him. It sure ld
Make him a happy camper.
Be back again in a few hours,
Cindi
Oops..cannot post the pic with the iPad. Will do so tomorrow!
Monday, August 27, 2012
Rough Day
Hey everyone,
I am not sure what happened but I wrote a post last night and it kept disappearing. I have been having trouble all day today trying to post, so I am not sure what is going on with Blogspot....but I will attempt this one last time.
Today was a really rough day. It started out with me having to deal with changes at school. I am not a person who likes change, not when it comes to space and moving etc. I like to get settled and hunker down. I found out today that my best friend, who shares a room with me at school, is being moved to another room and I am getting another person who will be sharing my space. I am heartbroken, but at the same time, the move makes sense for everyone involved, it just doesn't FEEL good.
The next thing that happened was I had to continue dealing with the relationship I discussed over the weekend. The dilemna remains...do I take the discomfort so this person cannot get away with what she is doing, or do I back down, move on without the hassle, but know that this person is being allowed to basically bully me, as this person has a tendency to do. It really truly isn't about "winning" at this point, because there is no "winner", but to give up would mean to allow this person to do it to someone else.
Finally, there was another incident on the homefront that I don't want to get into. But again, communication was skewed, and problems arose. So it was just a day of negativity. I despise negativity. I find it makes me squirm these days. I just want to avoid it at all costs. Life is just too dern short.Ya know?
So, all in all the day was not so great, but I did agree to go out to lunch with my partner teacher, even though every fiber in my being wanted to come home and vegitate. So I continue to try. I am making a committment to have my bedroom cleaned and organized before I go back to school next week. I will report each day!
Much love...I leave you with these words of wisdom:
I am not sure what happened but I wrote a post last night and it kept disappearing. I have been having trouble all day today trying to post, so I am not sure what is going on with Blogspot....but I will attempt this one last time.
Today was a really rough day. It started out with me having to deal with changes at school. I am not a person who likes change, not when it comes to space and moving etc. I like to get settled and hunker down. I found out today that my best friend, who shares a room with me at school, is being moved to another room and I am getting another person who will be sharing my space. I am heartbroken, but at the same time, the move makes sense for everyone involved, it just doesn't FEEL good.
The next thing that happened was I had to continue dealing with the relationship I discussed over the weekend. The dilemna remains...do I take the discomfort so this person cannot get away with what she is doing, or do I back down, move on without the hassle, but know that this person is being allowed to basically bully me, as this person has a tendency to do. It really truly isn't about "winning" at this point, because there is no "winner", but to give up would mean to allow this person to do it to someone else.
Finally, there was another incident on the homefront that I don't want to get into. But again, communication was skewed, and problems arose. So it was just a day of negativity. I despise negativity. I find it makes me squirm these days. I just want to avoid it at all costs. Life is just too dern short.Ya know?
So, all in all the day was not so great, but I did agree to go out to lunch with my partner teacher, even though every fiber in my being wanted to come home and vegitate. So I continue to try. I am making a committment to have my bedroom cleaned and organized before I go back to school next week. I will report each day!
Much love...I leave you with these words of wisdom:
Cindi
Saturday, August 25, 2012
RELATIONSHIPS..ughhhh
Hello folks,
well I just noticed I didn't post yesterday...hmmm, does that mean I have to start over? Things like that bug me. I hate it when I commit to something and I don't do it with fidelity. But, hey, life tends to intervene.
So last night I went to the movies with the "Baldwin Sister.' We went to see the strange life of Timothy Green. It was quite touching...I actually shed a few tears in the end. But all in all it was a good movie.
What I wanted to talk about yesterday is when to let go of crazy relationships. I am usually a pretty easy going person. I like just about everyone and I try hard to be a Godly woman and treat people with respect. But in the past year I have had two of the most difficult relationships. I managed to cut one loose....a friend who really wasn't a friend. SHe was judgemental and self centered and had the audacity to call me a fair weather friend because I put my family's needs before her son's graduation party. Never mind that it was an hour away and I hadn't seen her son since he was in 7th grade. Like he was going to notice? I had been having a very difficult week as had my son and we decided we needed family time first. I will admit I didn't call, but I really truly didn't think it was a big deal. I mean there were going to be a bizillion people there. I wouldn't know anyone, and I really don't like big parties. So she got angry and told me I was a fairweather friend..yet I was there when she needed surgery, I was there when she had a big breakup...etc etc. So I decided it was a no brainer..I didn't need negative people in my life. See ya!
The second relationship is more difficult. It is a work relationship. I don't see this person often, but she leads a group I belong to. Last Spring I challenged some decisions she and some of the members of the group were making. to make a long story shorter, basically she demanded my resignation. When I refused to give it to her she kept making things more and more difficult for me. I thought it was over, but last week it began once again.
Part of me wants to just quit, I don't need the aggravation and I don't like the negativity. But if I back down I feel as if I am empowering a bully. When do you back down for the serenity of the group and when do you stay, in order to make sure that bullies aren't taking advantage of others? A true delemna. I haven't made my decision yet. I am torn. I welcome input.
So today was a neat day..kind of in the same vein. For the last two years my relationship with my two sisters has been almost non existant. Some crazy stuff went down and we all said things we probably shouldn't have, or at least I can only speak for myself and I did. In the last few months we have been mending bridges. Life is too short for family to not be there for each other.
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Well today my nephew and his fiance came into town unexpectedly. I hadn't seen him in about three years. I knew I missed him, but we talked and talked and talked and I realized I really really had missed him and a piece of my heart had been missing. He and his beautiful wonderful fiance, that I just met, stayed for almost 7 hours I think. I was just so happy to spend time with them.
Life is short. People we love are important to us, and we should never take their love for granted. And people who bully us need prayer. It is mean and unproductive to continue negative relationships. I think my answer is just that...either let the past go and move on..or take separate cars to get to the party!
I love y'all, specially my baby boys and my dear Quino and Kristina....
CIndi
(Kim and Deb...I am so happy I have two beautiful sisters in my life again. You have been greatly missed.)
well I just noticed I didn't post yesterday...hmmm, does that mean I have to start over? Things like that bug me. I hate it when I commit to something and I don't do it with fidelity. But, hey, life tends to intervene.
So last night I went to the movies with the "Baldwin Sister.' We went to see the strange life of Timothy Green. It was quite touching...I actually shed a few tears in the end. But all in all it was a good movie.
What I wanted to talk about yesterday is when to let go of crazy relationships. I am usually a pretty easy going person. I like just about everyone and I try hard to be a Godly woman and treat people with respect. But in the past year I have had two of the most difficult relationships. I managed to cut one loose....a friend who really wasn't a friend. SHe was judgemental and self centered and had the audacity to call me a fair weather friend because I put my family's needs before her son's graduation party. Never mind that it was an hour away and I hadn't seen her son since he was in 7th grade. Like he was going to notice? I had been having a very difficult week as had my son and we decided we needed family time first. I will admit I didn't call, but I really truly didn't think it was a big deal. I mean there were going to be a bizillion people there. I wouldn't know anyone, and I really don't like big parties. So she got angry and told me I was a fairweather friend..yet I was there when she needed surgery, I was there when she had a big breakup...etc etc. So I decided it was a no brainer..I didn't need negative people in my life. See ya!
The second relationship is more difficult. It is a work relationship. I don't see this person often, but she leads a group I belong to. Last Spring I challenged some decisions she and some of the members of the group were making. to make a long story shorter, basically she demanded my resignation. When I refused to give it to her she kept making things more and more difficult for me. I thought it was over, but last week it began once again.
Part of me wants to just quit, I don't need the aggravation and I don't like the negativity. But if I back down I feel as if I am empowering a bully. When do you back down for the serenity of the group and when do you stay, in order to make sure that bullies aren't taking advantage of others? A true delemna. I haven't made my decision yet. I am torn. I welcome input.
So today was a neat day..kind of in the same vein. For the last two years my relationship with my two sisters has been almost non existant. Some crazy stuff went down and we all said things we probably shouldn't have, or at least I can only speak for myself and I did. In the last few months we have been mending bridges. Life is too short for family to not be there for each other.
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Well today my nephew and his fiance came into town unexpectedly. I hadn't seen him in about three years. I knew I missed him, but we talked and talked and talked and I realized I really really had missed him and a piece of my heart had been missing. He and his beautiful wonderful fiance, that I just met, stayed for almost 7 hours I think. I was just so happy to spend time with them.
Life is short. People we love are important to us, and we should never take their love for granted. And people who bully us need prayer. It is mean and unproductive to continue negative relationships. I think my answer is just that...either let the past go and move on..or take separate cars to get to the party!
I love y'all, specially my baby boys and my dear Quino and Kristina....
CIndi
(Kim and Deb...I am so happy I have two beautiful sisters in my life again. You have been greatly missed.)
Thursday, August 23, 2012
OMG! I spent time looking at FASHION!
Okay, today I attended a professional development workshop. It was actually quite good and I got a lot out of it. I am always amazed at the variety of approaches people, even teachers, take towards mathematics. I am just amazed at some of the explanations....but I loved every minute of it. The hardest part was just focusing on process and not DOING it...the focus was on the variety of processes we can use, versus the solution. ANd I love the process, but I love to work out the algebra and it drove me nuts that they kept stopping me from playing with the solution choices.
So, what does all this have to do with fashion you ask. Well, I am going to be taking on more professional development work this year, as a presentor, so I feel I need to start dressing a bit more professionally. I like comfort but I would like to look more put together than tunics and jeans. So, as I was at the math presentation today, I noticed one of the presenters looked put together, but comfy and casual. She was wearing a pair of capris, but flared and a hankerchief cut jacket in a soft linen like look and then a nice fitted tee. add some jewelry and she looked fabulous. No, not dressy, but still professional enough for this kind of presentation.
So I went online looking for some options...OH MY..I have to share one or two with you...because they were on this designer site and you just won't believe the cost...but I copied them, thinking maybe I could get some kind of knock offs. I also found a FABULOUS site for plus sized tights...now that may not sound like a big deal to some of you little girls, but us big girls often have our circulation cut off by tights. I have been know to spend $40 for a pair of SPANKS tights because they are so comfy.
So here are my three favorite looks:
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I love all 3 looks, but get this, look #1 is over $1200, I think #2, top only is $785, and look #3 is $1000, if I remember correctly. Shoottt...that is only $3000 for 2.5 outfits...well, I guess I could mix and match. OMG, I think the sweater in 3 is the same as the one in1...oh my, better go back and choose another top!
TALK TOMORROW..AND IF YOU WANT TO DONATE TO THE "DRESS CINDI" CAUSE YOU CAN DONATE AT WWW.DRESSATEACHER.PAYPAL.COM
hehehe
Oh yeah, and no new clothes til after school starts, seeing as how they are not paying me 24 hours I was planning on and budgeted for tomorrow. UGHHHH. SO there is $700 I need to cut from this week's budget..guess no car repair again this week.
Til tomorrow,
cindi
So, what does all this have to do with fashion you ask. Well, I am going to be taking on more professional development work this year, as a presentor, so I feel I need to start dressing a bit more professionally. I like comfort but I would like to look more put together than tunics and jeans. So, as I was at the math presentation today, I noticed one of the presenters looked put together, but comfy and casual. She was wearing a pair of capris, but flared and a hankerchief cut jacket in a soft linen like look and then a nice fitted tee. add some jewelry and she looked fabulous. No, not dressy, but still professional enough for this kind of presentation.
So I went online looking for some options...OH MY..I have to share one or two with you...because they were on this designer site and you just won't believe the cost...but I copied them, thinking maybe I could get some kind of knock offs. I also found a FABULOUS site for plus sized tights...now that may not sound like a big deal to some of you little girls, but us big girls often have our circulation cut off by tights. I have been know to spend $40 for a pair of SPANKS tights because they are so comfy.
So here are my three favorite looks:
\I love all 3 looks, but get this, look #1 is over $1200, I think #2, top only is $785, and look #3 is $1000, if I remember correctly. Shoottt...that is only $3000 for 2.5 outfits...well, I guess I could mix and match. OMG, I think the sweater in 3 is the same as the one in1...oh my, better go back and choose another top!
TALK TOMORROW..AND IF YOU WANT TO DONATE TO THE "DRESS CINDI" CAUSE YOU CAN DONATE AT WWW.DRESSATEACHER.PAYPAL.COM
hehehe
Oh yeah, and no new clothes til after school starts, seeing as how they are not paying me 24 hours I was planning on and budgeted for tomorrow. UGHHHH. SO there is $700 I need to cut from this week's budget..guess no car repair again this week.
Til tomorrow,
cindi
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
hmmmmmmmm
Okay, so today was an oookay, nothing spectacular. I worked at the Intake Center all day and then ran to Walmart for a few groceries and a new hose for the dryer. The boys HAVE pulled it out, but the hose is split and clogged so I went and bought a new kit. I think they can repair it...hopefully tomorrow I will be back "online" for doing laundry.
I did NOT write down my food and money though I am going to do so right now. I did keep track of calories and I have stayed under 1500 I think. Soup for lunch, two granola bars later on after shopping, peanutbutter crackers for 6:00 snack, and then nachos and cheese for dinner at 7:30. I know, I know, all carbs. I need to plan better.
Tomorrow I have a professional development day and they provide lunch so I can probably have salad for lunch. Last week thats what I had both days.
So..... Nothing spectacular today, but I did get some little errands accomplished so things could move along.
Much love...
Cindi
I did NOT write down my food and money though I am going to do so right now. I did keep track of calories and I have stayed under 1500 I think. Soup for lunch, two granola bars later on after shopping, peanutbutter crackers for 6:00 snack, and then nachos and cheese for dinner at 7:30. I know, I know, all carbs. I need to plan better.
Tomorrow I have a professional development day and they provide lunch so I can probably have salad for lunch. Last week thats what I had both days.
So..... Nothing spectacular today, but I did get some little errands accomplished so things could move along.
Much love...
Cindi
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Sorry for my absence
So sorry everyone...
I went away to camp for the weekend so I didn't post and then yesterday I fell asleep early. On Saturday I went to camp and had a wonderful time with the Aunties, or "the Baldwin sisters" as we are now calling them. My cousin and his wife were there for the weekend as well, so we had some fun family time and then built a fire outside and sat around the campfire...One of my summer bucket list items...CHECK!
On Sunday I finished up some housework and spent a lot of time doing research for some grants I am trying to get written. I also went grocery shopping and bought some very healthy food to cook.
Yesterday I worked at the intake center. Is is really neat to be able to be the first teacher some of our kids meet once they enter this country. I get to set the tone for how they feel about the Anerican school sytstem. The same is true for their parents. I get the chance to explain why ELL services are beneficial for their kiddos. I love it! Last night I cooked steak and rice for dinner. The boys loved it.
Okay..so today I went into school and did some "grunt" work that just needed doing. It was like getting a monkey off my back. I also came home and spent 6 hours working on a unit for Teachers Pay Teachers. I am determined to get some really good units put on TPT so that I can pay off my debt sooner than later.
Oh yeah, and another thing I did was to buy a small notebook to write everything that I spend. Beginning tomorrow I will be writing down all expenditures as well as putting all my food into Ifit. So I will let you know tomorrow what progress is being made. I am also going to weigh myself every Wed morning and charting my weight. My goal is to just lose 2 pounds a week. Let's see how that goes,. I mean I have to make some real goals or the 365 days will come and go and all I will have done is TALK about crap....
Til tomorrow my friends.
Cindi
I went away to camp for the weekend so I didn't post and then yesterday I fell asleep early. On Saturday I went to camp and had a wonderful time with the Aunties, or "the Baldwin sisters" as we are now calling them. My cousin and his wife were there for the weekend as well, so we had some fun family time and then built a fire outside and sat around the campfire...One of my summer bucket list items...CHECK!
On Sunday I finished up some housework and spent a lot of time doing research for some grants I am trying to get written. I also went grocery shopping and bought some very healthy food to cook.
Yesterday I worked at the intake center. Is is really neat to be able to be the first teacher some of our kids meet once they enter this country. I get to set the tone for how they feel about the Anerican school sytstem. The same is true for their parents. I get the chance to explain why ELL services are beneficial for their kiddos. I love it! Last night I cooked steak and rice for dinner. The boys loved it.
Okay..so today I went into school and did some "grunt" work that just needed doing. It was like getting a monkey off my back. I also came home and spent 6 hours working on a unit for Teachers Pay Teachers. I am determined to get some really good units put on TPT so that I can pay off my debt sooner than later.
Oh yeah, and another thing I did was to buy a small notebook to write everything that I spend. Beginning tomorrow I will be writing down all expenditures as well as putting all my food into Ifit. So I will let you know tomorrow what progress is being made. I am also going to weigh myself every Wed morning and charting my weight. My goal is to just lose 2 pounds a week. Let's see how that goes,. I mean I have to make some real goals or the 365 days will come and go and all I will have done is TALK about crap....
Til tomorrow my friends.
Cindi
Friday, August 17, 2012
A LONG DAY...
AH, it has been a long day. It started out with me working at the intake center, testing some new sweeties who just moved here from Africa, via France. They were very sweet and the youngest going to school was just adorable. I would have taken that little sweetie home in a heartbeat. And smart! wow~
Well then I came home. I did research for about 8 hours today. I need to write up my grant for the e-readers for my kiddos. I am getting 5 but I really want 10 more so I am trying to write some grants. I also did a lot of work with the COmmon Core and vocab development. But I managed to get an email off to the whole staff with a link to a vocab development site. I think I am going to do some work on a staff development workshop in October on the same thing, as well as a unit for Teachers Pay Teachers. I am going to attempt to post more things on TPT as it could become a great financial resource to help pay down my debt.
So productive time on the computer today, versus mindless rambling and linking to blogs. (Though I do love those teaching and crafting blogs.) Oh, and I got two good recipes of things I want to cook for the boys this week...stuffed bread..or pizza roll as they call it, and taco pie. I also pinned a few good healthy recipes.
I am leaving early tomorrow for camp. I am staying over with my aunt again. My mom and the aunties have a spaghetti dinner all planned and one of my cousins and his wife will be there, so that should be fun. I need to do my chores in the morning because I have avoided them for two days...
Hoping I remember to post tomorrow. My goal tomorrow...to actually take a walk while at camp. The air is supposed to be cooler and I NEED to start moving...I am hoping to get a swim pass in the next few weeks, as soon as I can spare the money.
Til tomorrow my friends..
Cindi
Well then I came home. I did research for about 8 hours today. I need to write up my grant for the e-readers for my kiddos. I am getting 5 but I really want 10 more so I am trying to write some grants. I also did a lot of work with the COmmon Core and vocab development. But I managed to get an email off to the whole staff with a link to a vocab development site. I think I am going to do some work on a staff development workshop in October on the same thing, as well as a unit for Teachers Pay Teachers. I am going to attempt to post more things on TPT as it could become a great financial resource to help pay down my debt.
So productive time on the computer today, versus mindless rambling and linking to blogs. (Though I do love those teaching and crafting blogs.) Oh, and I got two good recipes of things I want to cook for the boys this week...stuffed bread..or pizza roll as they call it, and taco pie. I also pinned a few good healthy recipes.
I am leaving early tomorrow for camp. I am staying over with my aunt again. My mom and the aunties have a spaghetti dinner all planned and one of my cousins and his wife will be there, so that should be fun. I need to do my chores in the morning because I have avoided them for two days...
Hoping I remember to post tomorrow. My goal tomorrow...to actually take a walk while at camp. The air is supposed to be cooler and I NEED to start moving...I am hoping to get a swim pass in the next few weeks, as soon as I can spare the money.
Til tomorrow my friends..
Cindi
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Grateful
WOW, good evening.
I am soooo tired tonight so this will be brief. I had to go into school today and pack up my classroom so they can clean it and strip and wax the floors. OMG! I worked really really hard from 8:45-2:30. BUT YEAH! I finished. I was sore and tired so I came home and took some advil and took a nap. I then went to tutor. So it was a busy, but productive day.
I felt very grateful today, grateful for a career I adore, a classroom that is comfy, staff that is kind and patient and cooperative. I am also grateful for the wonderful family I have been working with for 13 months. I have been tutoring their son and they appreciate me, respect me, and I adore them. It is a great relationship. So today is about being grateful...
Til tomorrow
Cindi
I am soooo tired tonight so this will be brief. I had to go into school today and pack up my classroom so they can clean it and strip and wax the floors. OMG! I worked really really hard from 8:45-2:30. BUT YEAH! I finished. I was sore and tired so I came home and took some advil and took a nap. I then went to tutor. So it was a busy, but productive day.
I felt very grateful today, grateful for a career I adore, a classroom that is comfy, staff that is kind and patient and cooperative. I am also grateful for the wonderful family I have been working with for 13 months. I have been tutoring their son and they appreciate me, respect me, and I adore them. It is a great relationship. So today is about being grateful...
Til tomorrow
Cindi
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
A Good Day...
Hello all,
Well today was a peculiar, but good day. I had agreed to sub at another school's summer program. When I got there I discovered it was FIELD TRIP DAY..ughh..to a pool, no less. Anyone who knows me knows that at this point in my career, I don't particularly like field trips, and I hate those that involve kids in water. I usually spend my entire day counting heads and worrying endlessly about losing a child..but the pool was open only for us. I also got to hang at the water sprinkler "pad" and it was actually fun. I didn''t even mind the rain! :) But then..ahhh THEN we got to go to a rocket presentation and it started POURING rain, but this was the only day to do it..well, the rain stopped and it was actually interesting, and I might even say, enjoyable. It's all what you make it, huh?
I forgot to mention. I had a little "tiff" with a teacher from another school yesterday at the prof dev class. It basically was a total miscommunication, but I have not felt put down like that in a long time, and even with apologies I think neither of us was satisfied. Hmm..I really really tried to be diplomatic, and I even bit my tongue when he tried to turn the blame on me....oh men, how they can do that, I don't know. But anyway, we both survived but I doubt we will ever be friends.
I sat down this afternoon and faced the finances. I designed and printed some record keeping sheets. I recorded my payments for the last year and then actually wrote down the balances in ALL accounts...mortgage, utilities, credit, etc. I will return to that sheet in 3 months and hopefully we will see huge changes.
I read a neat article yesterday about a woman and her husband who paid off their 30 year mortgage in 3.5 or 5.5 years!! They were young, without kids, and very very thrifty. They didn't have cable, they didn't have smart phones, though they did have cell phones. But the neat thing is they really didn't make much money. They are now COMPLETELY debt free. I think that would be an amazing feeling. I know it will take a LOT for me to ever get there, but I'd like to start keeping track of every penny I spend and then cutting back as much as I can...So beginning tomorrow I will have a small notebook in my purse and I am going to write every single thing down.EVERYTHING. Maybe I will even share after doing it for 7-10 days.
And finally, I did not eat in between meals today! I did not eat breakfast...not good I know...had carrots and peanut butter for snack, ate half of a BLT w/avacado for lunch...without one part of bread. Now that was an eye opener...I checked the clock to make sure I didn't eat for more than 30 minutes. OMG! I scoffed that ding dang sandwich in like 5 minutes! 5 MINUTES, my friends. No wonder I then got sick....so when I eat the other half tonight I am going to make it last at least 15...
So that's all for today. A really long blog, I know. But I just had so much to share. So today starts week 3...I think I have actually made quite a few steps in the right direction.
Until tomorrow...
Cindi
Well today was a peculiar, but good day. I had agreed to sub at another school's summer program. When I got there I discovered it was FIELD TRIP DAY..ughh..to a pool, no less. Anyone who knows me knows that at this point in my career, I don't particularly like field trips, and I hate those that involve kids in water. I usually spend my entire day counting heads and worrying endlessly about losing a child..but the pool was open only for us. I also got to hang at the water sprinkler "pad" and it was actually fun. I didn''t even mind the rain! :) But then..ahhh THEN we got to go to a rocket presentation and it started POURING rain, but this was the only day to do it..well, the rain stopped and it was actually interesting, and I might even say, enjoyable. It's all what you make it, huh?
I forgot to mention. I had a little "tiff" with a teacher from another school yesterday at the prof dev class. It basically was a total miscommunication, but I have not felt put down like that in a long time, and even with apologies I think neither of us was satisfied. Hmm..I really really tried to be diplomatic, and I even bit my tongue when he tried to turn the blame on me....oh men, how they can do that, I don't know. But anyway, we both survived but I doubt we will ever be friends.
I sat down this afternoon and faced the finances. I designed and printed some record keeping sheets. I recorded my payments for the last year and then actually wrote down the balances in ALL accounts...mortgage, utilities, credit, etc. I will return to that sheet in 3 months and hopefully we will see huge changes.
I read a neat article yesterday about a woman and her husband who paid off their 30 year mortgage in 3.5 or 5.5 years!! They were young, without kids, and very very thrifty. They didn't have cable, they didn't have smart phones, though they did have cell phones. But the neat thing is they really didn't make much money. They are now COMPLETELY debt free. I think that would be an amazing feeling. I know it will take a LOT for me to ever get there, but I'd like to start keeping track of every penny I spend and then cutting back as much as I can...So beginning tomorrow I will have a small notebook in my purse and I am going to write every single thing down.EVERYTHING. Maybe I will even share after doing it for 7-10 days.
And finally, I did not eat in between meals today! I did not eat breakfast...not good I know...had carrots and peanut butter for snack, ate half of a BLT w/avacado for lunch...without one part of bread. Now that was an eye opener...I checked the clock to make sure I didn't eat for more than 30 minutes. OMG! I scoffed that ding dang sandwich in like 5 minutes! 5 MINUTES, my friends. No wonder I then got sick....so when I eat the other half tonight I am going to make it last at least 15...
So that's all for today. A really long blog, I know. But I just had so much to share. So today starts week 3...I think I have actually made quite a few steps in the right direction.
Until tomorrow...
Cindi
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
ON MY WAY
Gooooood evening,
Well today I feel like I did something in the realm of what this blog is all about. I had pinned many different family notebook organizational items and looked at some financial websites. Although I would like to take the class about financial freedom I find it funny that churches charge $90 for a 6 session class on financial freedom. Isn't that an oxymoron in a sense ..to pay for financial freedom?
Anyway, I decided I was not going to pay money to download all those cute forms to organize my life. I downloaded a few freebies and then decided to just make my own. So I made and printed...monthly check list for bills paid, quarterly report on balances, then lists for each month..amount due, date due, amt paid, , and finally a planning sheet for each paychcek for the pays remaining in 2012. I have been keeping track on my iphone, and I will continue to do so, but having record keeping on a spreadsheet version gives me some clear info.
WOW! Feels good. They are all printed so I will fill them in tomorrow. I also had a real "aha " moment today at lunch. Many of you know I had lapband surgery four years ago. Although I lost 60 pounds. I still have another 130 to go. I haven't really done much about it. I think I really had an eye opener today. The coaches at the center always said to eat what I could in 20 minutes and stop. I never really adhered to that. But I struggle with keeping good food down, and then resort to junk food. Nachos and crackers and peanut butter go down much easier than protein and vegetables that are larger than an olive. I also eat too fast.
So what I have been doing lately is making healthier choices when I am out .. But I see myself stopping after10-15 minutes or so because my stomach cannot contain any more, but then picking for another 30 minutes at what is on my plate. I eat too fast in the beginning so I have to stop at like 10 minutes to digest and then I just pick. For instance today...I didn't eat the bread, but took a half of a veggie roll up and a half of a tuna sandwich and made a salad. I picked at it for about 20 minutes and then threw away about 1/4 of it. But then I ate 4 cookies and two small bags of chips during the course of the afternoon workshop because they were part of the meal and I took them to the table.,...MISTAKE!
So, beginning tomorrow...30 minutes for each meal...eat slowly....and after the 30 minutes I am done! I can have a mid morning snack of yogurt or fruit, an afternoon snack of veggies or a granola bar, and then an evening snack if necessary of one of the above. Twice a week I will allow a dessert of some sort but only during designated snack times and only for 20 minutes, what I do not eat in 20 minutes, I do not eat.
So..2 BIG things...started on...Looking good....imagine if I manage to stick to these little things...in 365 days things will be looking good. So no new big things for at least 30 days, as it takes 30 days for habits to develop and 2 things are enough. But there are lots of little things I can do.
OH YEAH, and I made a chore list for myself and the boys for tomorrow. Printed it out and gave it to them. Let's see of they can check the 3 things each off...nothing major...should take them each 45 minutes max.
Til tomorrow,
Cindi
Well today I feel like I did something in the realm of what this blog is all about. I had pinned many different family notebook organizational items and looked at some financial websites. Although I would like to take the class about financial freedom I find it funny that churches charge $90 for a 6 session class on financial freedom. Isn't that an oxymoron in a sense ..to pay for financial freedom?
Anyway, I decided I was not going to pay money to download all those cute forms to organize my life. I downloaded a few freebies and then decided to just make my own. So I made and printed...monthly check list for bills paid, quarterly report on balances, then lists for each month..amount due, date due, amt paid, , and finally a planning sheet for each paychcek for the pays remaining in 2012. I have been keeping track on my iphone, and I will continue to do so, but having record keeping on a spreadsheet version gives me some clear info.
WOW! Feels good. They are all printed so I will fill them in tomorrow. I also had a real "aha " moment today at lunch. Many of you know I had lapband surgery four years ago. Although I lost 60 pounds. I still have another 130 to go. I haven't really done much about it. I think I really had an eye opener today. The coaches at the center always said to eat what I could in 20 minutes and stop. I never really adhered to that. But I struggle with keeping good food down, and then resort to junk food. Nachos and crackers and peanut butter go down much easier than protein and vegetables that are larger than an olive. I also eat too fast.
So what I have been doing lately is making healthier choices when I am out .. But I see myself stopping after10-15 minutes or so because my stomach cannot contain any more, but then picking for another 30 minutes at what is on my plate. I eat too fast in the beginning so I have to stop at like 10 minutes to digest and then I just pick. For instance today...I didn't eat the bread, but took a half of a veggie roll up and a half of a tuna sandwich and made a salad. I picked at it for about 20 minutes and then threw away about 1/4 of it. But then I ate 4 cookies and two small bags of chips during the course of the afternoon workshop because they were part of the meal and I took them to the table.,...MISTAKE!
So, beginning tomorrow...30 minutes for each meal...eat slowly....and after the 30 minutes I am done! I can have a mid morning snack of yogurt or fruit, an afternoon snack of veggies or a granola bar, and then an evening snack if necessary of one of the above. Twice a week I will allow a dessert of some sort but only during designated snack times and only for 20 minutes, what I do not eat in 20 minutes, I do not eat.
So..2 BIG things...started on...Looking good....imagine if I manage to stick to these little things...in 365 days things will be looking good. So no new big things for at least 30 days, as it takes 30 days for habits to develop and 2 things are enough. But there are lots of little things I can do.
OH YEAH, and I made a chore list for myself and the boys for tomorrow. Printed it out and gave it to them. Let's see of they can check the 3 things each off...nothing major...should take them each 45 minutes max.
Til tomorrow,
Cindi
Monday, August 13, 2012
OOPS
Oh my, I forgot to blog last night. For those of you worried and concerned, I'm fine. :)
I went to camp Saturday and spent the night. Yesterday I helped my nieces and the "aunties" to get ready for a 25th wedding anniversary for my brother and sister-in-law. It was really nice..Can an stay married for 25 years? My sister and her husband will celebrate 25 years next summer I think.
I made a taco salad so that there would be a healthier choice for me at the party. I ate that, one egg salad roll, minus the roll, and a very small piece of cake...not bad, huh? I mean there was a lot of food...so I was pleased with myself
Today I had to take a class. I will be back there tomorrow. It is professional development in math. They provided lunch so I had salad for lunch and salad for dinner today. Just felt like it. Tired of being tired, so trying to get more veggies and fruits into my poor body. Later I will have yogurt and fruit.
My dear boy is trying to go to see his girlfriend in VA. She is away at college and goodness, he has had to go a month without seeing her except to skype everyday. So I had to go with him to the game store so he could sell his XBox, which I paid like $450 for two years ago. He got $100 for it. UGHHH. But hey, he is earning the money himself so I guess I have no real reason to say he cannot go.
I am tired tonight, I just realized I have three weeks including this one before I have to return to school full time. Of those three weeks I am working or in a professional development class 8 of those days....But hey, some people only get three weeks a year for vacation. So, I will not complain.
I am signing off early....hmmm. I need to think of something creative to do tomorrow so y'all don't get bored here. Leave me a message. Tell me how you rejuvenate yourself when you are feeling tired or low. Oh yeah, and how do you handle your kids being disappointed. I cannot stand it, even though it is unhealthy to never feel disappointed. But it just kills me. I hate it. I just hate to see my kids unhappy.
Ah, goodnight my friends. I am going to bed early tonight. I mean, not right now, but prior to midnight!
Cindi
I went to camp Saturday and spent the night. Yesterday I helped my nieces and the "aunties" to get ready for a 25th wedding anniversary for my brother and sister-in-law. It was really nice..Can an stay married for 25 years? My sister and her husband will celebrate 25 years next summer I think.
I made a taco salad so that there would be a healthier choice for me at the party. I ate that, one egg salad roll, minus the roll, and a very small piece of cake...not bad, huh? I mean there was a lot of food...so I was pleased with myself
Today I had to take a class. I will be back there tomorrow. It is professional development in math. They provided lunch so I had salad for lunch and salad for dinner today. Just felt like it. Tired of being tired, so trying to get more veggies and fruits into my poor body. Later I will have yogurt and fruit.
My dear boy is trying to go to see his girlfriend in VA. She is away at college and goodness, he has had to go a month without seeing her except to skype everyday. So I had to go with him to the game store so he could sell his XBox, which I paid like $450 for two years ago. He got $100 for it. UGHHH. But hey, he is earning the money himself so I guess I have no real reason to say he cannot go.
I am tired tonight, I just realized I have three weeks including this one before I have to return to school full time. Of those three weeks I am working or in a professional development class 8 of those days....But hey, some people only get three weeks a year for vacation. So, I will not complain.
I am signing off early....hmmm. I need to think of something creative to do tomorrow so y'all don't get bored here. Leave me a message. Tell me how you rejuvenate yourself when you are feeling tired or low. Oh yeah, and how do you handle your kids being disappointed. I cannot stand it, even though it is unhealthy to never feel disappointed. But it just kills me. I hate it. I just hate to see my kids unhappy.
Ah, goodnight my friends. I am going to bed early tonight. I mean, not right now, but prior to midnight!
Cindi
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Evening my blogging friends,
It has been an interesting day. I stayed in bed late this morning, and then had laundry to do. I had promised my aunties that I would go up to camp. I didn't know they expected me to go to this "Christmas Dinner" that is an annual event. Well, once again, my inclination was to stay at home, but I went. It was fun. Now we are watching a movie together. Nice!
The fish last night was fabulous. OH MY GOODNESS. I cooked 16 small thin fillets, and I ate one. The boys ate all of it except one piece! So I would say it was a success. It was called parmesan crusted tilapia. It was parmesan, mayo and spices, atop fillets baked with lemon. It really was yummy. Okay, so I added some shredded cheese, because we had very little parmesan.
So, what did I do today in addition to laundry and coming up to camp and going to dinner. I started researching becoming gluten free. I am not committing to it, yet, but I want to read about it. I am going to continue the research and see what it is all about.
So I guess I am successful today in meeting my daily goal. See, that is another thing about me. I tend to be a perfectionist, or rather, feel like I am a failure for NOT being perfect. I remember once I lost 90 pounds. My therapist said I was doing well, and I cried and said I was a phony. Cause I was losing weight on Atkins, and I had eaten some carbs after 6 months of not a bite! Imagine, being disappointed in myself because I wasn't perfect, even though I had lost 90 pounds in a matter of months. That is what has me researching gluten free, because I have lost the most weight by eliminating most carbs. I know they are my enemy, my major addiction. Ahhhh, and now I cannot even eat bread anyway because of my lapband. Okay, I am rambling. I think I will say goodnight. Tomorrow I have another family event and will share about it in the evening.
So, clean clothes, good company, a night away. I guess that is a good day. Hmmm, Day 11, and I have actually gone out a lot. So I guess that is a beginning. On to bigger and better things.
Til tomorrow
Cindi
It has been an interesting day. I stayed in bed late this morning, and then had laundry to do. I had promised my aunties that I would go up to camp. I didn't know they expected me to go to this "Christmas Dinner" that is an annual event. Well, once again, my inclination was to stay at home, but I went. It was fun. Now we are watching a movie together. Nice!
The fish last night was fabulous. OH MY GOODNESS. I cooked 16 small thin fillets, and I ate one. The boys ate all of it except one piece! So I would say it was a success. It was called parmesan crusted tilapia. It was parmesan, mayo and spices, atop fillets baked with lemon. It really was yummy. Okay, so I added some shredded cheese, because we had very little parmesan.
So, what did I do today in addition to laundry and coming up to camp and going to dinner. I started researching becoming gluten free. I am not committing to it, yet, but I want to read about it. I am going to continue the research and see what it is all about.
So I guess I am successful today in meeting my daily goal. See, that is another thing about me. I tend to be a perfectionist, or rather, feel like I am a failure for NOT being perfect. I remember once I lost 90 pounds. My therapist said I was doing well, and I cried and said I was a phony. Cause I was losing weight on Atkins, and I had eaten some carbs after 6 months of not a bite! Imagine, being disappointed in myself because I wasn't perfect, even though I had lost 90 pounds in a matter of months. That is what has me researching gluten free, because I have lost the most weight by eliminating most carbs. I know they are my enemy, my major addiction. Ahhhh, and now I cannot even eat bread anyway because of my lapband. Okay, I am rambling. I think I will say goodnight. Tomorrow I have another family event and will share about it in the evening.
So, clean clothes, good company, a night away. I guess that is a good day. Hmmm, Day 11, and I have actually gone out a lot. So I guess that is a beginning. On to bigger and better things.
Til tomorrow
Cindi
Friday, August 10, 2012
A Rainy Day
Evening everyone.
I haven't felt well today, so I can't say I have done much,. I didn't even shower and get dressed! YUM...that's a sight to picture. I am not sure exactly what is up, My stomach starting hurting last night and was still painful this morning. I haven't eaten much. I am making fish for dinner.
I paid the bills and I did some research today on e-readers in the classroom. I was notified that I am getting 5 ordered through the school dept and I wrote a "grant" for a donation from KOBO, so I guess I did do something, even if it was from my chair. I was supposed to go to camp for an overnight but I postponed til tomorrow. I really can't say I'm feeling great right now. But definitely better than I was.
Thanks to all of you who are commenting on facebook. Not sure why commentss aren't working here. i guess you have to be a member to leave a comment.
Have a great weekend.
Cindi
I haven't felt well today, so I can't say I have done much,. I didn't even shower and get dressed! YUM...that's a sight to picture. I am not sure exactly what is up, My stomach starting hurting last night and was still painful this morning. I haven't eaten much. I am making fish for dinner.
I paid the bills and I did some research today on e-readers in the classroom. I was notified that I am getting 5 ordered through the school dept and I wrote a "grant" for a donation from KOBO, so I guess I did do something, even if it was from my chair. I was supposed to go to camp for an overnight but I postponed til tomorrow. I really can't say I'm feeling great right now. But definitely better than I was.
Thanks to all of you who are commenting on facebook. Not sure why commentss aren't working here. i guess you have to be a member to leave a comment.
Have a great weekend.
Cindi
Thursday, August 9, 2012
It's a New Day, It's a New Dawn
Hello friends,
I am watching the Olympics. My goodness, to have years worth of hard work, hopes, and dreams, to boil down to one brief moment in time. Just watched this beautiful young man run the 400 m. He is the first Masai from Kenya to ever run. He practices on a dirt track in his village. And he set a world record and won the gold! That is just amazing. And scary.
Well, I am no Olympian, that is for sure, but I am sticking with my blog, and with my efforts to make the necessary changes to have a life that is not filled with fear and avoidance. In that vein, I had a minor appointment with my doctor today. She just wanted to check in with me about my meds , and my weight I think. That seems to be a subtle subject of interest to her. (I had lost 4 # since I saw her last...not that I was dieting!). In true Cindi fashion I decided to try and get out of it. My blood work last week was fine, I was feeling good, I just didn't want to go. But when I called I was told I COULD skip it, but she probably wouldn't be pleased. I decided to go...and it was a really great appt. One of my best! She asked how I was and I told her about my blog. She suggested a book she thought I would like, (which explains why some people find it necessary for quiet time, and alone time.) So it was worth it.
The s'mores were a BIG hit with the kids at school as well as at home with my boys. Oh yes, and I continued to face the finances today. I called and made some adjustments to a couple of things I was planning on paying, making sure I would not dig a hole at the same time. I am still working on it, so it looks like we;ll make it through another week! :) Unfortunately, the young man I tutor was not feeling well, so I lost out on that $50, but hey, it comes, it goes. I am going to take a minute and try to find something I wanted to share with y;all...brb
Okay, there have been a few quotes I have pinned on pinterest. This isn't one of the more attractive ones...but it really is what I am feeling today..
I am watching the Olympics. My goodness, to have years worth of hard work, hopes, and dreams, to boil down to one brief moment in time. Just watched this beautiful young man run the 400 m. He is the first Masai from Kenya to ever run. He practices on a dirt track in his village. And he set a world record and won the gold! That is just amazing. And scary.
Well, I am no Olympian, that is for sure, but I am sticking with my blog, and with my efforts to make the necessary changes to have a life that is not filled with fear and avoidance. In that vein, I had a minor appointment with my doctor today. She just wanted to check in with me about my meds , and my weight I think. That seems to be a subtle subject of interest to her. (I had lost 4 # since I saw her last...not that I was dieting!). In true Cindi fashion I decided to try and get out of it. My blood work last week was fine, I was feeling good, I just didn't want to go. But when I called I was told I COULD skip it, but she probably wouldn't be pleased. I decided to go...and it was a really great appt. One of my best! She asked how I was and I told her about my blog. She suggested a book she thought I would like, (which explains why some people find it necessary for quiet time, and alone time.) So it was worth it.
The s'mores were a BIG hit with the kids at school as well as at home with my boys. Oh yes, and I continued to face the finances today. I called and made some adjustments to a couple of things I was planning on paying, making sure I would not dig a hole at the same time. I am still working on it, so it looks like we;ll make it through another week! :) Unfortunately, the young man I tutor was not feeling well, so I lost out on that $50, but hey, it comes, it goes. I am going to take a minute and try to find something I wanted to share with y;all...brb
Okay, there have been a few quotes I have pinned on pinterest. This isn't one of the more attractive ones...but it really is what I am feeling today..
Thanks for letting me share today, have a wonderful day tomorrow,
Cindi
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Not a Fun Awakening to Reality
hey all,
Well I am not feeling so happy this evening. Goodness, it is expensive to live in this world with any sense of comfort. UGHHHHHH. Well today I faced some of my finances, another thing I like to ignore. I actually visited a few blogs based on organization and one was great in putting together a household notebook which keeps track of bills, expenses, debt, etc. I am going to get that finished this weekend. But alas, it lookks like the car will need to wait. With a phone bill of $300, a cable bill of $300, plus mortgage and car insurance and my overdraft account, I am already behind. So, though I am sure I will crap from some people for airing my dirty laundry, this is part of my catharsis. It's not like I am broke because I am out shopping...I mean yes, I bought groceries and paid for gas for the cars, but the only non essential that I purchased this week is Isaiah's studio time, and that is an investment in his future and wellbeing.
So, maybe next week. Maybe I should just go in and see how much it will be, but that is just embarrassing to get the quote and then leave. Plus, I would still pay for some of their time, and truly there is no extra, unless we give up food and gas.
So, as I debate whether I should actually share this, but what the hell, who reads it anyway?, I can share a good thing that happened today. I made s'mores in the oven for the last day of summer school and zaya loved them! He came home to the smell of sweet cooking and he was excited. He ate two before running off for a performance at a local club. YUP, my baby is performing at a club. I am not going because it is a young crowd and I really dont feel like sitting in a bar.
So, yucky facts to face. But you know, we are not in danger of losing our house or our essentials. Worse case scenario we decide to live a week or two without cell phones or cable and internet. And, in the realm of the universe, with starving children, and homeless people, who cares about internet or cell phones?
Tomorrow will be a better day. I trust God will pull us through this sticky mess. ANd hey,,I faced it. I shared it too, which takes away some of the shame and just makes it a problem to be faced.
til tomorrow
Cindi
Well I am not feeling so happy this evening. Goodness, it is expensive to live in this world with any sense of comfort. UGHHHHHH. Well today I faced some of my finances, another thing I like to ignore. I actually visited a few blogs based on organization and one was great in putting together a household notebook which keeps track of bills, expenses, debt, etc. I am going to get that finished this weekend. But alas, it lookks like the car will need to wait. With a phone bill of $300, a cable bill of $300, plus mortgage and car insurance and my overdraft account, I am already behind. So, though I am sure I will crap from some people for airing my dirty laundry, this is part of my catharsis. It's not like I am broke because I am out shopping...I mean yes, I bought groceries and paid for gas for the cars, but the only non essential that I purchased this week is Isaiah's studio time, and that is an investment in his future and wellbeing.
So, maybe next week. Maybe I should just go in and see how much it will be, but that is just embarrassing to get the quote and then leave. Plus, I would still pay for some of their time, and truly there is no extra, unless we give up food and gas.
So, as I debate whether I should actually share this, but what the hell, who reads it anyway?, I can share a good thing that happened today. I made s'mores in the oven for the last day of summer school and zaya loved them! He came home to the smell of sweet cooking and he was excited. He ate two before running off for a performance at a local club. YUP, my baby is performing at a club. I am not going because it is a young crowd and I really dont feel like sitting in a bar.
So, yucky facts to face. But you know, we are not in danger of losing our house or our essentials. Worse case scenario we decide to live a week or two without cell phones or cable and internet. And, in the realm of the universe, with starving children, and homeless people, who cares about internet or cell phones?
Tomorrow will be a better day. I trust God will pull us through this sticky mess. ANd hey,,I faced it. I shared it too, which takes away some of the shame and just makes it a problem to be faced.
til tomorrow
Cindi
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Please just let me hide my head in the sand
I tend to hide my head in the sand....a lot! I just avoid things that make me nervous, scared, ashamed, etc. That's why I don't go in the basement anymore. I would rather go to the laundramat then go downstairs and feel the frustration I feel at all the mess down there. I will go without getting an inspection sticker on the car, for fear that I will not pass and would have to face the fact that I need work done on it. I won't check the balance in my account when I know it isn't good news.
So today was about facing some of those things. I know, I know. I really need therapy. I would agree. But that is another thing I "forget" which I think is subconcious avoidance, what do you think? So, in the spirit of trying to change those things I made two steps today. I made an appointment for the car to go in the shop Friday to get the necessary work done for an inspection sticker, and I looked into renting a dumpster to clean out the basement, I also arranged for some help from two of the custodians at my school who are so amazing they offered to help.
Ahhhhh, I know I will do what I can to avoid facing it, but I really need to do those things.
So, for those of you who are thinking...oh yeah, that's a lot to do in a day...well for me it is. Baby steps my friends, baby steps.
Til tomorrow,
Cindi
So today was about facing some of those things. I know, I know. I really need therapy. I would agree. But that is another thing I "forget" which I think is subconcious avoidance, what do you think? So, in the spirit of trying to change those things I made two steps today. I made an appointment for the car to go in the shop Friday to get the necessary work done for an inspection sticker, and I looked into renting a dumpster to clean out the basement, I also arranged for some help from two of the custodians at my school who are so amazing they offered to help.
Ahhhhh, I know I will do what I can to avoid facing it, but I really need to do those things.
So, for those of you who are thinking...oh yeah, that's a lot to do in a day...well for me it is. Baby steps my friends, baby steps.
Til tomorrow,
Cindi
Monday, August 6, 2012
Monday, August 6
Helllooooo,
Goodness, I was just getting ready to head to bed and I remembered I hadn't posted anything for Monday. Well, nothing terribly exciting. It was really hot this morning in my summer school class. I was melting by the time the bus came to get them, so I ended up falling asleep in the chair when I got home. Yes, I allowed myself to sleep in the big comfy chair. But I did spend the rest of the afternoon and the evening writing a proposal for Kindles in my classroom. So nothing really exciting. I guess I will have to try tomorrow to do better. Sorry, this is so short tonight, just too ding dang tired. Til tomorrow...
Cin
Goodness, I was just getting ready to head to bed and I remembered I hadn't posted anything for Monday. Well, nothing terribly exciting. It was really hot this morning in my summer school class. I was melting by the time the bus came to get them, so I ended up falling asleep in the chair when I got home. Yes, I allowed myself to sleep in the big comfy chair. But I did spend the rest of the afternoon and the evening writing a proposal for Kindles in my classroom. So nothing really exciting. I guess I will have to try tomorrow to do better. Sorry, this is so short tonight, just too ding dang tired. Til tomorrow...
Cin
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Sunday, August 5
Evening my friends. I think my mom may be the only one who reads this every day, because she called me this morning to say I hadn't posted last night. I actually had, but failed to link it to facebook. So, in that vein, I will make sure I link it today.
SO today, hmmm. Well, I got out of bed prior to 9 am. That;s something good for myself! I neatened up the den where I like to sit in my big comfy chair...does anyone remember the PBS show, "Lunette and the big Comfy Chair"? When my son was little he loved that show,. The year he turned 2 he bought that big rag doll (with my mother's financial assistance, :), for me for Mother's Day. He explained that he would help me take care of her and she could sleep in his bed if I wanted.
So here I am, 15 years later, with my own big comfy chair. ANyway...what did I do today? well, I went up to camp to visit with my mom and the "aunties." I am blessed that my mom has three sisters and we love to spend time together. In fact, they were heading to the new casino near the lake for Aunt Ma's birthday (she turned 77), but I declined. I was afraid my chair might miss me. I mean, I've been gone a lot the last few days, and I can't have the big comfy chair feeling neglected.! I did pin some healthy recipes today and when I finish here I am going to go make some plans for healthy meals. One is parmesian coated tilapia fish. Sounds yummy, cheap, and healthy. I think the boys might even eat it too...so fish for dinner tomorrow night,.
Much love to all
Cindi
SO today, hmmm. Well, I got out of bed prior to 9 am. That;s something good for myself! I neatened up the den where I like to sit in my big comfy chair...does anyone remember the PBS show, "Lunette and the big Comfy Chair"? When my son was little he loved that show,. The year he turned 2 he bought that big rag doll (with my mother's financial assistance, :), for me for Mother's Day. He explained that he would help me take care of her and she could sleep in his bed if I wanted.
So here I am, 15 years later, with my own big comfy chair. ANyway...what did I do today? well, I went up to camp to visit with my mom and the "aunties." I am blessed that my mom has three sisters and we love to spend time together. In fact, they were heading to the new casino near the lake for Aunt Ma's birthday (she turned 77), but I declined. I was afraid my chair might miss me. I mean, I've been gone a lot the last few days, and I can't have the big comfy chair feeling neglected.! I did pin some healthy recipes today and when I finish here I am going to go make some plans for healthy meals. One is parmesian coated tilapia fish. Sounds yummy, cheap, and healthy. I think the boys might even eat it too...so fish for dinner tomorrow night,.
Much love to all
Cindi
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Good evening friends, or self, whichever the case may be. Nobody leaves me comments so I am not so sure I am making any impact, but hey, I am not doing this for the world. I am doing it for me! This morning I had my summer oatmeal and for lunch I had roasted veggies. Now we will not discuss dinner, as it was at the baseball game, so you can imagine....
Today I did two good things for me, aside from eating a good breakfast and lunch.
1. I reopened my fitness pal account on my iphone so I could start tracking my food....yes, I am willing to start tracking again. It may not be pretty, but I will do it!
2. The boys and I went to a Seadogs (baseball) game! A friend had the final bid on a SKYBOX and invited us. It was fun! I can't say the boys socialized much, but hey, we were together, sort of. ANd I socialized, one of my goals for this adventure. So, little sitting in my comfy chair today.
Tomorrow I am going up to camp with a friend for part of the day. I am also determined to spend at least one afternoon reading at the beach this week. I have not done that in quite a few years and there were many summers pre and post Isaiah that I went to the beach every nice day there was. SO...I WILL GO TO THE BEACH THIS WEEK.
Oh yeah, during the day today, instead of watching TV, I spent some time watching Ruby's videos about her 30 day weight loss challenge. I am seriously considering joining it, though they are halfway through. (Are you familiar with Ruby? She had a show and now she is on the internet, because her show was cancelled. She has lost over 400 pounds, and is struggling to lost the last 120.)
Have a wonderful Sunday,
Cindi
Today I did two good things for me, aside from eating a good breakfast and lunch.
1. I reopened my fitness pal account on my iphone so I could start tracking my food....yes, I am willing to start tracking again. It may not be pretty, but I will do it!
2. The boys and I went to a Seadogs (baseball) game! A friend had the final bid on a SKYBOX and invited us. It was fun! I can't say the boys socialized much, but hey, we were together, sort of. ANd I socialized, one of my goals for this adventure. So, little sitting in my comfy chair today.
Tomorrow I am going up to camp with a friend for part of the day. I am also determined to spend at least one afternoon reading at the beach this week. I have not done that in quite a few years and there were many summers pre and post Isaiah that I went to the beach every nice day there was. SO...I WILL GO TO THE BEACH THIS WEEK.
Oh yeah, during the day today, instead of watching TV, I spent some time watching Ruby's videos about her 30 day weight loss challenge. I am seriously considering joining it, though they are halfway through. (Are you familiar with Ruby? She had a show and now she is on the internet, because her show was cancelled. She has lost over 400 pounds, and is struggling to lost the last 120.)
Have a wonderful Sunday,
Cindi
Friday, August 3, 2012
Good evening friends,
Well as you know, This blogis about me taking one step every day towards making me a better person/the world a abetter place. Well, many of you also know that my favorite thing of all is just sitting in this old delapitated recliner reading, sewing, and trolling the internet. I can spend three hours reading teaching blogs, jumping from one page to the next.
So this morning I had to be on an interview team for my school. It is supposed to be my day off but I just hate to say no to my principal, she is such a darling. So when I got home I was chillin' in my chair when the phone rang. Now I am not big on answering the phone. I have been known to not answer all afternoon because I just don't want to talk to anyone. I guess after talking with kids and listening to kids all day, I just treasure the silence. ANyway, the phone rang and I answered it. SO that was my good thing for today!...Noooo, just kidding. It was a friend who was in town and so she wanted to get together. I agreed, but not without hesitation. I just wanted to hang out in my chair...but the whole purpose of 365 Days is to get me doing things OTHER THAN sitting in this comfy, if not ugly, chair. SO I went to visit. My friend loves to be on the go, much like the old me, so we ended up going out to eat to the Cracker Barrel and then to a movie. (I'll get to that in a minute.) So at cracker barrell I ordered grilled trout.. It was delish. So then we went to the movies. There were very few choices so we ended up seeing Ted, the movie about a teddy bear that comes alive. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB! But..and this is a big but..I did laugh at many parts. But mostly I kept saying...Oh, this movie is AWFUL!
So, Day3...got out to see a friend, went to eat, and went to a movie. I guess that is getting out of the chair. I also made some good choices in eating today, I made some bad ones, but I made some good ones, and right now, that's the point. Until tomorrow..
Cindi
Well as you know, This blogis about me taking one step every day towards making me a better person/the world a abetter place. Well, many of you also know that my favorite thing of all is just sitting in this old delapitated recliner reading, sewing, and trolling the internet. I can spend three hours reading teaching blogs, jumping from one page to the next.
So this morning I had to be on an interview team for my school. It is supposed to be my day off but I just hate to say no to my principal, she is such a darling. So when I got home I was chillin' in my chair when the phone rang. Now I am not big on answering the phone. I have been known to not answer all afternoon because I just don't want to talk to anyone. I guess after talking with kids and listening to kids all day, I just treasure the silence. ANyway, the phone rang and I answered it. SO that was my good thing for today!...Noooo, just kidding. It was a friend who was in town and so she wanted to get together. I agreed, but not without hesitation. I just wanted to hang out in my chair...but the whole purpose of 365 Days is to get me doing things OTHER THAN sitting in this comfy, if not ugly, chair. SO I went to visit. My friend loves to be on the go, much like the old me, so we ended up going out to eat to the Cracker Barrel and then to a movie. (I'll get to that in a minute.) So at cracker barrell I ordered grilled trout.. It was delish. So then we went to the movies. There were very few choices so we ended up seeing Ted, the movie about a teddy bear that comes alive. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB! But..and this is a big but..I did laugh at many parts. But mostly I kept saying...Oh, this movie is AWFUL!
So, Day3...got out to see a friend, went to eat, and went to a movie. I guess that is getting out of the chair. I also made some good choices in eating today, I made some bad ones, but I made some good ones, and right now, that's the point. Until tomorrow..
Cindi
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Evening friends,
Today is day 2 of 365 Days to a New Me, Can't say I feel very changed yet! HAHAHA. ANyway, the summer oatmeal was delish, I ate it this afternoon as I was running really late this morning. Today I roasted a pan full of veggies....asparagus, carrots, and peppers, yellow and red. Such a pretty array of colors. ANd tasty..I love roasted veggies and I don't make them often enough. SO I am going to try to go to the farmers market or veggie stand once a week aand get veggies to roast. they are great hot or cold.
Another thing I want to try is making a leather friendship bracelet, I am going to try a little later. I will post pics if I can. Have a great night. Talk tomorrow!
CIndi
Today is day 2 of 365 Days to a New Me, Can't say I feel very changed yet! HAHAHA. ANyway, the summer oatmeal was delish, I ate it this afternoon as I was running really late this morning. Today I roasted a pan full of veggies....asparagus, carrots, and peppers, yellow and red. Such a pretty array of colors. ANd tasty..I love roasted veggies and I don't make them often enough. SO I am going to try to go to the farmers market or veggie stand once a week aand get veggies to roast. they are great hot or cold.
Another thing I want to try is making a leather friendship bracelet, I am going to try a little later. I will post pics if I can. Have a great night. Talk tomorrow!
CIndi
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Hey,
So I just had my whole post almost done and somehow I erased it. My computer tends to skip all over the place,. Maybe I am touching the bar, cause it is in my lap, but it is annoying. Anyway, today is the first day of 365 Days To A New Me! I thought of doing something dramatic like sky diving or volunteering 2 years in the Peace Corps, but I stopped myself! SO I am a mom to teenage boys and a teacher of English Language Learners,. I adore both jobs, (okay I don;t LOVE the teen years), and I can say I am pretty good at both...okay I think I am a great teacher. And I think I am a great mom in that I support my kids dreams, I create memories for them, and I am always able to say I am sorry for anything I have done that hurt them. But, and this is a big BUT, I am not a great housekeeper, I am the queen of procrastination, and I tend to hide my head in the sand. I also do not take very good care of myself. I am overweight, and often make crummy choices around food and exercise. So this blog is about making some small effort to create a better me....one who cares about myself and my environment. So I am not looking to lose weight, though that would be nice, I am making sure I do something each day and see what it brings me.
So in the spirit of change I did two healthy things today....I made some fruit salad for dinner for the boys and I and I made summer oatmeal for the next two mornings. FOr those of you wondering what summer oatmeal is, it is oatmeal, milk, yougurt and fruit, mixed together in a mason jar, and then refrigerated. It creates this really yummy grapenut pudding-like yummy breakfast. And HEALTHY. I found it on pinterest...my favorite place. I will try to post a picture, though I am not really tech savvy about blogging...
Until tomorrow my friends (or myself cause I doubt I will have many people reading this..)
Cindi
Okay, here is my attempt at posting a picture.
oh wow, it came out. But I don't know how to post it so you can link to it. I will try that tomorrow.
So I just had my whole post almost done and somehow I erased it. My computer tends to skip all over the place,. Maybe I am touching the bar, cause it is in my lap, but it is annoying. Anyway, today is the first day of 365 Days To A New Me! I thought of doing something dramatic like sky diving or volunteering 2 years in the Peace Corps, but I stopped myself! SO I am a mom to teenage boys and a teacher of English Language Learners,. I adore both jobs, (okay I don;t LOVE the teen years), and I can say I am pretty good at both...okay I think I am a great teacher. And I think I am a great mom in that I support my kids dreams, I create memories for them, and I am always able to say I am sorry for anything I have done that hurt them. But, and this is a big BUT, I am not a great housekeeper, I am the queen of procrastination, and I tend to hide my head in the sand. I also do not take very good care of myself. I am overweight, and often make crummy choices around food and exercise. So this blog is about making some small effort to create a better me....one who cares about myself and my environment. So I am not looking to lose weight, though that would be nice, I am making sure I do something each day and see what it brings me.
So in the spirit of change I did two healthy things today....I made some fruit salad for dinner for the boys and I and I made summer oatmeal for the next two mornings. FOr those of you wondering what summer oatmeal is, it is oatmeal, milk, yougurt and fruit, mixed together in a mason jar, and then refrigerated. It creates this really yummy grapenut pudding-like yummy breakfast. And HEALTHY. I found it on pinterest...my favorite place. I will try to post a picture, though I am not really tech savvy about blogging...
Until tomorrow my friends (or myself cause I doubt I will have many people reading this..)
Cindi
Okay, here is my attempt at posting a picture.
oh wow, it came out. But I don't know how to post it so you can link to it. I will try that tomorrow.
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