Not a Fun Awakening to Reality

hey all,
Well I am not feeling so happy this evening. Goodness, it is expensive to live in this world with any sense of comfort. UGHHHHHH. Well today I faced some of my finances, another thing I like to ignore. I actually visited a few blogs based on organization and one was great in putting together a household notebook which keeps track of bills, expenses, debt, etc. I am going to get that finished this weekend. But alas, it lookks like the car will need to wait. With a phone bill of $300, a cable bill of $300, plus mortgage and car insurance and my overdraft account, I am already behind. So, though I am sure I will crap from some people for airing my dirty laundry, this is part of my catharsis. It's not like I am broke because I am out shopping...I mean yes, I bought groceries and paid for gas for the cars, but the only non essential that I purchased this week is Isaiah's studio time, and that is an investment in his future and wellbeing.

So, maybe next week. Maybe I should just go in and see how much it will be, but that is just embarrassing to get the quote and then leave. Plus, I would still pay for some of their time, and truly there is no extra, unless we give up food and gas.

So, as I debate whether I should actually share this, but what the hell, who reads it anyway?, I can share a good thing that happened today. I made s'mores in the oven for the last day of summer school and zaya loved them! He came home to the smell of sweet cooking and he was excited. He ate two before running off for a performance at a local club. YUP, my baby is performing at a club. I am not going because it is a young crowd and I really dont feel like sitting in a bar.

So, yucky facts to face. But you know, we are not in danger of losing our house or our essentials. Worse case scenario we decide to live a week or two without cell phones or cable and internet. And, in the realm of the universe, with starving children, and homeless people, who cares about internet or cell phones?

Tomorrow will be a better day. I trust God will pull us through this sticky mess. ANd hey,,I faced it.  I shared it too, which takes away some of the shame and just makes it a problem to be faced.

til tomorrow

Cindi