I am not sure what happened but I wrote a post last night and it kept disappearing. I have been having trouble all day today trying to post, so I am not sure what is going on with Blogspot....but I will attempt this one last time.
Today was a really rough day. It started out with me having to deal with changes at school. I am not a person who likes change, not when it comes to space and moving etc. I like to get settled and hunker down. I found out today that my best friend, who shares a room with me at school, is being moved to another room and I am getting another person who will be sharing my space. I am heartbroken, but at the same time, the move makes sense for everyone involved, it just doesn't FEEL good.
The next thing that happened was I had to continue dealing with the relationship I discussed over the weekend. The dilemna remains...do I take the discomfort so this person cannot get away with what she is doing, or do I back down, move on without the hassle, but know that this person is being allowed to basically bully me, as this person has a tendency to do. It really truly isn't about "winning" at this point, because there is no "winner", but to give up would mean to allow this person to do it to someone else.
Finally, there was another incident on the homefront that I don't want to get into. But again, communication was skewed, and problems arose. So it was just a day of negativity. I despise negativity. I find it makes me squirm these days. I just want to avoid it at all costs. Life is just too dern short.Ya know?
So, all in all the day was not so great, but I did agree to go out to lunch with my partner teacher, even though every fiber in my being wanted to come home and vegitate. So I continue to try. I am making a committment to have my bedroom cleaned and organized before I go back to school next week. I will report each day!
Much love...I leave you with these words of wisdom:
Cindi
Oh, Cindi, I feel your pain. I hate negativity too and just want everyone to be happy and "get along"...but I really don't think you should back down if you are being bullied. I KNOW you teach the kids to stand up for themselves and assert themselves so don't settle for anything less for yourself! You deserve so much better!
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